Rarely do I panic about health issues when it comes to me. I usually say fuck it and move on. Today and even as I type this on my phone I’m scared. My left hand didn’t work. It felt funny when I got up and after awhile I knew it wasn’t the normal I slept on it funny response.
My thumb and pointer were useless and I couldn’t hold anything. I have to admit taking a shower I was crying because I couldn’t use it. I felt stupid and useless. I was scared that I wouldn’t be better. I work with my hands and I linda need em. I thought about my gaming and writing. Holding or even saving my kids would be nearly impossible.
As the day went on and my limits were more evident I freaked in my head more. Then I calmed down talking to Amanda and my mobility is improving. Its better but not perfect. I can text one line at a time but its slow going.
Mostly I see it as a sign to get a physical and see what caused it.